When I sat down to record the first episode of The Aligned Actor™ Podcast, I had a little freak out. Okay, it was a pretty big freak out. I ugly cried.
I didn’t know what I wanted to say or how to say it, and I felt very unsure and vulnerable about everything.
Then, while I was washing dishes and my son was playing with this little toy truck, I heard its little electronic voice say, “Yay! You did it! Good job!” And it hit me, we cheer our children on when they try new things, but for some reason we stop doing this for ourselves as we get older.
When my son was learning to walk I didn’t go, “You fell! You’re a horrible walker. You’re never gonna get this.” Heck no! I was his champion and constant cheerleader saying, “Yay! You can do it! Try again!”
And yet, for myself, when I try something new (like starting a podcast) I tend to go, “I have no idea what I’m doing. This sucks, this is crap, I’m never gonna get this. Ugh!”
Why do I do this to myself? It doesn’t feel good, and it certainly doesn’t help me get better at the new thing I’m trying to do. If anything it makes me wanna quit and close up shop and say, “nope, too scary, this is not for me.” Which I almost did.
If I had, my inner critic and all the evil, little gremlin voices that tell me I should be exceptional at new things right out of the gate, or not bother trying, would have won.